HELLO? Movie studios...if your not to busy, can we get a RELEASE DATE?!...

My question is, when the frick is this movie coming out????

Shit! you know how eager i am to see it!?

...I wanna know when its coming out, so i can prepare the boot-leggers on da block to boot-leg my ass a copy A.S.A.P!

No! i'm totally kidding, i'd happily pay money to see Ben Barnes beautifulllllllllllllllll face on a big screen...

(omg what a face...BEST thing about this face is the little beauty mark under his right eye.)

Actually, alot of people don't know my obession with Ben Barnes.

well, they don't know because i don't post or talk about him much...but the truth is, i'm MORE obsessed with him, then i am with Bill, or Tom, or Henry Cavill, or anyone else in the movie/entertainment business.

and the reason i haven't posted much about Ben Barnes is, ONCE I START, I WON'T STOP!

but i WILL post about Ben Barnes...very..very soon...

Transporter 3;

Just seen this movie. I know I'm late as hell, but whatever. Better late then never.

All i gotta say is, i liked it. I really enjoyed it.

[ ...but 'Transporter 2' is, and will always be my favorite of the series. I don't know why, but i just really like the 2nd one, maybe it's because i adore that cute little boy Frank was trying to protect. ] But I did enjoy the 3rd one.

Ya know, a lot of people didn't like the girl in the 3rd one. They said her acting was horrible, and she was hard to look at because of all her freckles, and they classified her as being 'ugly.' But i disagree. I don't agree with those statements AT ALL.

When i first saw her, i thought the complete opposite. I thought she was beautiful. And i enjoyed her acting. This was her first movie, and i thought she did a good job. She was cute and entertaining. And unlike a lot of people, i loved her freckles. They make her look different, she stands out. She has an 'exotic' look. It's not one you see everyday. Hence the reason why so many people would not like her look. Personally, in my opinion, an exotic face is sexy, because it isn't common. By the way, kudos to whoever did her eye-make up. Her eyes were dazzling, i couldn't stop staring at her. At one point, i even paused the movie, just so i could really look at her. But as i said, i thought she was beautiful...no, more like stunning.

Confession: Even though I'm 23 years old; I'm obsessed with the Disney channel. Call me crazy, call me childish, i don't care, i love me some Disney Channel.

Every day when I come home, my TV is set to the Disney channel. I love their shows! When I used to live with Nikki, back in Georgia, everyday when Symphonee would come home from school, we would watch Disney shows together. It was so relaxing, and so much fun, because even though the shows are intended for kids, their extremely entertaining, even for adults! But my favorite was always Cole and Dylan's show, 'The Sweet Life of Zack and Cody.' Lol i love those twins! (I think, i just love twins in general!) Me and Symphonee used to fight over which one belonged to who! Lol i always prefer Cody! To me, Cody was always the hottest because he was more nerdy, and dork-ish. Zack on the other hand, was the funny one, the player, the 'cool' one. Which is why i prefer Cody. (Eh, what can i say, i love my nerds! I'm faithful to them!)

 I liked them ever since i saw one of their first movies, 'Big Daddy,' that's when i fell in love with them. And now look at them, all grown up! Funny thing is, i always knew those boys would grow up to be sexy as hell! And as usual, i was right, because now look at them....sexy, AND rich as hell!

& Last but not least; 

Jesus Is Not My Homeboy, He's My Savior

There IS A BIG DIFFERENCE between 'homeboy' and 'savior.'

Have some respect and call the man what he IS, he's a SAVIOR.

Best thing about World Cup is their offical song.

I loveee this song. It's one of the few songs that have GOOD lyrics! the lyrics are so powerful! Very meaningful and heart-felt lyrics...
Sing this song, and you'll feel the lyrics.

This is off-topic, but another STRONG lyric song is this one below, the song is called, "Something inside SO strong..."
It's a old song, but i heard it over the radio the other day, and wow, the lyrics moved me.

"I did not ask for the life that I was given. But it was given, nonetheless. And with it, I did my best."

“Step-Mother Ella?” I don't think so...



What is it with me? Why the hell do i constantly attract men with children?

Seriously, i am not one of those girls who can date a man knowing he has children from another woman. No, lemme rephrase that, i can do it, but i won't do it. I refuse too!


Here's the reason why; I am extremely selfish when it comes to my friends and my loved ones. And it just so happens that 'my man' falls under both categories; because he has to be a friend, and he also has to be a loved one. So being the selfish human being that i am, i do not like to share my man's attention with anyone! So here's the problem with dating a man who has children from another woman. A) there's another woman involved. B) I have to share his attention with his children from the woman before me. And C) My man and the woman before me, will always have a special bond because his FIRST child was with her.


Now, I may not be able to control a lot of things in my life, but i can control who i date, and who i fall in love with. (And for those of you people who think you can't control who you fall in love with. Yes you can. You have the power to control that. But i won't go into that, because that's a lot of explaining and writing to do, and honestly, I'm not in the mood to play ms. Teacher tonight. Matter fact, squash that, if you believe in love at first sight and if you believe that you cannot control who you fall for, then good for you. Believe what you'd like, i ain't here to change nobody's opinion or view of things.)

Here's why this topic came up.


I met this cool guy, right? Extremely good-looking, vegetarian, funny, understanding, all the above. But tonight, i find out he has a child, and attached to that child, is the child's baby mama. Now to be honest, immediately, it turned me of. He didn't do anything wrong, but just the mere fact that he has a child by someone else, that killed it for me. I was disappointed. And i didn't hide it well at all, because he picked up on the disappointment in my voice.

After we hung up, he texted me and asked me, “Are you scared?” But as i explained to him, its not a matter of being scared. I have nothing to be scared of, because i will not be putting myself in that situation. I don't like the idea of dating someone with baggage. I have enough baggage of my own to deal with, and last thing i want to do is add someone else baggage to my own. I must admit, i did really like him. But at the end of the day, i will not settle, and I've never been one to follow my heart. Why? Because I trust my common sense more then i do my emotions. I believe in common sense. I'll stop the early morning text messages, and late night phone-calls, and i will not hang out with him. I don't see the sense.

"A behavior that starts as an attempt to feel more in control can end up controlling you."

...keep that in mind, Ella.

OMG! that is the CUTEST baby EVERRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Check out his facial expressions! He's hott and he KNOWS it! =D 

..wOw...When did Tom get a BODY?

damn...he looking.....fuck-a-lious.

I'm at a lost for words....lol

Too bad, I prefer Bill.

But Bill is looking TOO skinny. =/

Their identical twins, but yet they always looks so different.

                 .Tom is hood/tan/built -> Bill is rock/pale/skinny.

Meet Mr. Downer...

Last night I had a writing class, but for some reason, my allergies began acting up once I entered the building. I don't know what caused me to get a major allergy attack, but something in the air must of triggered it of. I couldn't breathe, my nose kept running, my head was stuffy, I was just a mess last night. It got so bad, I had to leave class an hour early. (I also left early because my class-mates kept staring hard at me. Apparently my running nose and sniffles was distracting them. Oopz! Oh well, its not my fault i couldn't breathe!)

As I was leaving, I stopped at the snack machine, and brought some skittles [the purple pack!] && Afterwards, I looked around, picked a nice, warm spot, and sat down on a bench...alone. I was feeling so relieved once i left the building, mainly because i could breathe again. I was so relaxed. I didn't even pull out my phone to talk or text. I was just me and God, enjoying the fresh Caribbean air together.

That is...UNTIL some random boy came and sat next to me.

At first i thought, “Cool. No biggie.” But then this random boy, this stranger, decides to ask me a bunch of questions about the tattoo's on my arms. And it was at that moment I said to myself, “DAMNIT my arm tattoos always give people an excuse to talk to me! People always tend to start a conversation with me because of these tattoo's. Gosh...(You know, sometimes when you really don't feel like talking, especially to a stranger. & its a fact that once you give them a answer to ONE question, then that just opens the conversation up for MORE questions! And i HATE being asked questions; I hate having to answer to people. Especially people i do not know.)


So anyways, dude kept on talking and talking. And while he was talking, I noticed he is one very depressing person. And I do not do depressing people. From that one little conversation, I gathered that in his mind, the world is against him. He was talking about how the school messed up his schedule, and how he used to have a job at a factory, where you could come to work dressed however you want, and the bosses and employee's cuss at each other like crazy. And while he's talking, I'm looking at him disgusted like “...THAT is the kind of job you want?” What a loser. A fucking low-life. I'm sorry, if someone tells me stupid shit like that, in my mind, you have no kind of class about you. You basically want to get paid for doing nothing. No ambition, no goals, no dreams, nothing. You just want to settle. How unattractive! No man in their right man would admit that to a woman. Something must be terribly wrong with him.

As he continued talking, I pulled out my phone and started texting everyone in my phone starting from A to Z. And to make it worst, he questioned me and asked me, “Why am I out of class?” and telling me how i shouldn't be out of class because I'll miss important facts. First off, the minute he did that, my mood change and immediately I got fed up of him and his lame conversation tactics. Plus, last time i checked, i have a father, and my father knows not to question me. I HATE when people take it upon themselves to tell me what to do, or scold me in a way. And that was his tone. He's so retarded because I told him before hand that my allergies were acting up, and his dumb ass still wanna tell me i should be in class. I looked at him with a hard stare and was like “...I just said I can't breathe in there? How am i gonna stay somewhere i can't breathe?” and then the fool still want to over-ride my answer and prove his point. He's one of those personalities where he expects people to answer him. Not me. He got the wrong fucking one. He's authoritative. I HATE authoritative people.

But all hope wasn't lost, because out of no-where, Justin pulled up! (Justin is my lawyer friend, my sweet-heart, he's one of the guys I met while going to school there.) So he pulled up, and as soon as i saw him get out his car, i called him over to me, in hopes he could maybe pretend to be superman and save me from disaster. But no, he didn't. As fast as he came, he left with the same speed. =/

After Justin drove off, i called him and told him about my unpleasant company, and he just laughed at me and said, “Pretend you have gas, just inhale a bunch of air, and then hopefully, it'll gas you up, and just start farting...then maybe the guy will leave you alone. Or start scratching your crotch and say something like, “Wow, this rash is really getting out of hand!” Maybe then he'll leave you alone...or maybe, just maybe...why don't you just do what a normal person would do, and just politely excuse yourself from the conversation...”

I thought about it for awhile, but no way! i wasn't excusing nothing because my ass touched that bench BEFORE his! He should be the one to leave!

I'm usually always friendly, and never rude to people; but you see when i come across as a 'depressing ' person. I turn into a monster. I refuse to feel sorry for people who complain, and who whine about everything in their life. i REFUSE to converse with negative people, which is why i pulled out my phone and began ignoring him. People who have a negative mind-frame, and those kinds of people who always think the world is against them. Those fuckers are in for a worst fate, because little do they know, they BRING misery to themselves with THAT negative mind frame! Those kinds of people better stay far, far, farrrr away from me, because i HATE dealing with their kind. That kind of mentality is such a sickness and its so contagious! Anyone can catch it, and no-one is immune from it.


The thing is, you don't know when your dealing with a person like that until you hear them talk. That's why I prefer to be a “listener.” I hate being the one to talk. (Maybe that's why i turned out to be a writer. And maybe that's why i write so much. I have things to say, but i don't want to talk it. I prefer to write it.)

But truthfully, people love to be heard, and if you give a person a chance, their tell you their whole life story. And then afterwards, when its all said and done, that's when you can identify who they are, or what they are about.



*Advice of the day: If you just meet someone, always let them be the one to talk first. Let them start of the conversation. And then ask yourself, “Do i really want this kind of person in my life?”

Speaking from the Heart...

I'm not a follower, and I'm not a leader. I'm just a person who goes her own way, in hopes that no-one is following behind her. Don't follow me. I can't be held responsible for anyone who chooses to see the logic in my ways. I know why I do what I do; but I don't know why you do what you do.

That's the God honest truth. What makes sense to me, may not makes sense to you. Which is why, you shouldn't do things i do. How I think, you shouldn't think. I may look at a pile of nonsense, and find the sense in it. You may not.

It's so unwise to copy someone else ways, or mimic their ways of thinking, because each of us grew up differently, and each of us have different values, and morals we choose to live by. And what I do, you may not like, but who are you to question or judge? Are you God? Are you trying to fill God's shoes by taking His job? As I recall, God made it clear that ONLY He is to judge. Everyone knows God is a jealous God, and as much as He loves us humans, there's no way in hell, He'll ever trust us enough to allow us to judge each other...Reason being is, nobody knows a person the way God knows a person. We cannot see into someone's heart, only He can. Hence, the reason why He said, “Do not be quick to judge others.” In your eyes, someone may do something so stupid, and so dumb; but after all is said and done, you have NO IDEA why that person did what they did. And furthermore, that person does not owe you a explanation. That person does not have to tell you why he or she did what they did. You are not God, and a person does not have to confess ANYTHING to you.

But I promise you this, that person did what they did, for a reason.

A human being never does anything without first having a reason to do it.
Behind every action, is a reason.


Never judge, or question the choices a person chooses to make. You don't know what their going through, or what they been through. And weather you realize it or not, your just as lost and confused as they are.

They say the truth hurts, well here is the truth; YOU are just another human being trying to find your way through this life. And YOU are just as fucked up and guilty as the next person.

Everyone wants 'truth.'
Well there's the fucking truth...can you handle it? Or will you break?

Eddie + Andy.

God, how i miss Trish.

I always think of Trish when I see pictures of Eddie and Andy together.

We're both strange...like them. both dependent on each other...like them.

both...crazy over each other...like them...

she's the Andy to my Eddie; the Eddie to my Andy.

the silly to my billy.

Currently watching 'The Tudors' Season 2 and all I can think is, “Where is Henry Cavill?”

 That is my only compliant when watching this show. Everything else is fine, except the fact that they don't show Henry Cavill enough. And i know its not just me, because I've heard other people complain about the same problem.

When i first started watching this show, I only watched it because Johnathon Rhys Myers was playing King Henry. And at that point, Johnathon Rhys Myers was the best thing about this show...that is, until Henry Cavill came on the TV screen. After that my attention and reason for watching the show shifted and went into a whole different direction. I used to think the sex scenes with Johnathon Rhys Myers was intense, but then I saw some sex scenes with Henry Cavill, like the eposide with him and King Henry's sister on the boat! wow, HOTT.

(The first time I saw this scene, I got so excited, I didn't know what to do with myself, so I just started rolling around the bed, until eventually I ran out of space and rolled OFF the bed! LMAO! && Yes, I'm one of those people who get REALLY into movies/t.v. shows.)

I actually first saw Henry Cavill in the movie, 'Triston and Isolde.' (which by the way was an awesome movie!) James Franco played the main character Triston, while Henry Cavill played the supporting role as Triston's brother. And just like in 'The Tudors,' my attention shifted from the main actor to the supporting actor Henry Cavill. He has great screen presence. Which is why I don't understand why the directors and producers of the show don't give him more screen time.

 Ask any girl who watches any Henry Cavill movies, and I bet they'll ask the same question, “Where is Henry Cavill?”

*Fun fact: Henry Cavill can speak 9 different languages.*

If that isn't sexy, then i don't know what is. Because when I heard his sexy ass has a talented tongue, and could speak 9 languages, that automatically made me consider him as the role of my 'Mr. Right' a.k.a my Prince Charming in the flesh! (well, my version!)

Think about it; he has an accent, he's English, he's tall, he has dark hair and blue eyes, he's smart, and best of all he can speak multiple languages.

You gotta admit, that is quite impressive. ;]

Can we say, "...the Dream Man!?"

“He’s the bad guy with girls. So…don’t trust my brother.”

-Bill (Tom's twin brother)

Tom just being...well, Tom.

       

                   By the way, i wish Tom would get rid of those damn braids && bring back his dreads!

                   He looked SO much better with his natural hair color, && his dreads.

...Maybe I'm missing something?

When people first hear about 'the Beatles,' they automatically think great music. Which i can 100% agree with! But...for the women who say “...those are some sexy looking men..” that is the part where i get confused and begin to question my taste in men...because in my eyes, those are four UGLY looking men!


Seriously!



And i know that sounds very shallow of me, but DAMN! When God was giving out good looks, all four of them must of been in the BACK of the line talking and standing...And usually, in a band, there's always at least ONE cute one...at least! but with them? There's NONE.

 To me, 'The Beatles' are the perfect example that you don't have to be good-looking to be successful.

 I know back in the day, chicks used to go crazy over them, i mean really crazy over them, and for what? I could understand they got good music, hell yeah. But looks? C'mon now. Would you like to wake up next to that face in the morning? I think not.

But here's the GOOD news; for all you men and woman out there who think you'll never make it because you don't feel you are attractive enough to make it in this shallow world we live in, don't worry. there's always hope. Take my advice, buy a poster of 'the Beatles' of eBay and tape it on your bedroom wall, and every night before you go to bed, after you pray, look at your poster and let your last thought for the night be, “If their ugly asses can make it, then SO CAN I!”





LMFAO!

It takes SO little to make me happy.

"The Dreamers."

This movie a true* masterpiece.

Mainly, because one of my favorite directors directed it.

Bernardo Bertolucci, the man has the mind of a genius

His movies are SO raw and they always PUSH the limits.

What do all 3 of these men have in common?

BOOTS!

Like Kesha, I love 'boots + boys!' haha!

NOTHING in this worldddd, turns me on more then a man wearing boots!

i don't know what it is...but my God, i find a man wearing boots to be the ulimate TURN-ON!

LMAO!

Back in Florida, Jerry used to always wear boots like those above, (He dressed alot like the guy in the first picture) but everytime I'd go to his house, I'd go straight to his closet and put on his boots, and model them around his house. they were to big, but i didn't care. lol i've always loved men boots. when i was younger, i used to even wear my dad's boots around the house. of course, I'd get yelled at, but i that didn't stop me from wearing them when he wasn't home...lol

90% of my boots in my closet, look like those pictured above. (very manly.) I don't wear HIGH boots. i may wear them if they go with an outfit and i plan on being uncomfortable for the night, but i prefer the LOW, dirty looking, comfortable biker boots. ;]