OKAY body, I gave you caffeine , now you stop giving me headaches.

Seriously, a 3-three coffee withdrawl headache is NOT cool.

I don't understand. I never get problems when I stop drinking coffee, but DAMN! I must be drinking some STRONG Cuban coffee without knowing it cuz my head been KILLING me since I stopped the caffeine...(Well, actually, i didn't really stop, i just been TOO lazy to wake up early on mornings and take the time to MAKE the coffee....lol whoopz.)

SLOTH. no wonder its a sin.

>=(

I love this song, and I love this video.

The best part of the video is when Tom punched Bill in the arm, and Bill looks as if he was in pain, but he laughed it of in an attempt to be 'manly'.  Funny as hell. 

& say what you want about Bill, but Bill has beautiful bone structure. his face is perfection. <3

...Excited much!?



I can't wait! =D

“The good thing about masturbation is that you don’t have to dress up for it."

Hilarious!

Housewife?      i think NOT.

Men are so funny. (well the men i meet are.)

They always have these crazy fantasies about me, and it always involves me becoming their housewives. They love to imagine coming home to me cooking and cleaning, washing and ironing, and taking care of kids. 

Too bad it's only a dream and it WILL NEVER happen. Some dreams come true, but that specific dream will never become a reality....not ever. I tell them all the time, "stop wasting your day-dreams on that...dream about something that has a better chance of becoming a reality." 

Reason being is; I think, because i was never one of those girls who wanted to settle down and play house with a man, i always meet men who want that. its like that old saying, "whatever you don't want, you always get..." and so because i don't want it, the men i meet always make it their MISSION to get me to change my mind, they want SO badly to make me into one of those girls who will settle and play the role of the "Mrs."

What's funny is, IF i was a girl who wanted to settle down, I would never find a man who wanted to settle down, but because i DON'T want to settle down, I always attract the kind of men who DO want to settle down...

Life is funny, isn't it?

 
*Fun fact: I've never...in all my 23 years of life, met a man that would make me even consider playing the role of a housewife. I've never loved any man that much...I think the O N L Y  man I'll play 'housewife' for...is my younger brother. and that's only because I love him more then I'll ever love any man. even my (future) husband.*

“ It feels like somebody took my heart and dropped it into a bucket of boiling tears. At the same time somebody else is hitting my soul in the crotch with a frozen sledgehammer. And then a third guy walks in and starts punching me in the grief bone. and I’m crying. and nobody can hear me…. because I’m terribly, terribly, terribly….. alone..."

Long story short; heart-break SUCKS! lol

Those of you who wrote me and asked me why it is i don't up-date more often, here's the God honest truth, no time, and ...because i have a life. and that life takes up ALOT of my time.

See the dilema?

I wanna spend TODAY and the rest of my life doing that with YOU.

It was never supposed to be this way....

“This will be the worst time of suffering since the beginning of the world, and nothing this terrible will ever happen again. If God doesn't make the time shorter, no one will be left alive. But because of God's chosen ones, He will make the time shorter."

Matthew (24.49;21)

Today, As I read that Bible passage, I was automatically blown away by it.

When I first read that, I felt as if Jesus was sitting down talking directly to me about this day and age.

This scary, horrible, disgusting day and age we all live in, where nothing seems to go right. We've lost our souls and forgotten our values. We're unsure of ourselves, and we've gotten so bad, that we've forgotten who the Father is.

It's true when they say we're living on the Devil's land.

(For those of who don't know, when God casted Satan out of Heaven, where do you think Satan came? He came to earth.
& Don't we [humans] live on earth? Exactly. Do you see where I'm going with this? We're basically sharing a room with the devil.)

 

Man, it's harddd. I know every generation says that; but for some reason, people of today are struggling more then ever.

Matter of fact, not only people are struggling, nature is also struggling.
Day by day our ozone layer is slowly deteriorating, our land is being torn apart and spit into pieces by earthquakes. Our sea's are rising up against us during tsunami's. And as time goes on, water and food supply become less and less.
 Saddest part of all this is, when each earthly disaster strikes, lives are taken. Millions of lives are lost, & more and more innocent children become orphans...All because of the state we're in.

People, when will you realize, we can't help ourselves anymore.

Family cannot help us, friends cannot help us, government cannot help us. Only Jesus and His Father God can help us. Nobody else. We've tried everything else, and it's failed us!

We need God, now more then ever.

So my fellow family, friends, bloggers, strangers, if God chooses to makes this time on earth shorter, then I'm with him on it. I won't fight, and say, “I want to stay longer!”

No. I won't dare say that to Him, because if I did, I'd be lying.

 

I'm tired of sharing a room with the devil. I'm ready go back home to my Father.

This sleep-over with the devil has lasted too long, and i just want to go home. I want to be at peace.

 

End our suffering Lord...and let thy will be done.

I have a presentation due for my next class.


&& I'm going to do it on the subject I know MOST about; It's a subject I've researched for over 22 years,


....MYSELF.

Oh Andy,

Make Moves, not excuses.

I don't believe in sitting there and not doing anything about a problem. I believe in making moves.

I know there's certain type of friends when you tell something to them, they just acknowledge it and forget about it. I wonder, what the hell was the point in even telling you my problem if you can't even attempt to help me? After all, isn't that what 'friends' are for?

 

Here's a secret; people don't just tell you something for the fuck of it. A lot of the times, it's because they need help. Your help. When a person confides [personal] information to you, it's because the situation is so overwhelming for them, they actually need outside help. They're looking for the advice or the input of others. And as a friend, your job is to be there for them. Even if you don't have all the right answers, don't worry, all you have do is listen. And alot of the times, people don't even expect you to have an answer, they just want the comfort of knowing someone is actually willing to listen to them.

*Picture this; When your praying at night, and your talking to God, does he interrupt you? Does he talk over you? No, he stays quiet and listens to you. He's such a good listener, that at times, we may think He's not hearing us, but he does. Sometimes we wonder why is He so quiet? But He's quiet because He's busy LISTENING to you talk. God knows what we don't know, He knows how to be the perfect friend. *

 

So the next time, when someone comes to you for help. Don't shun them, or ignore them. Read between the lines, and feel special that person actually feels comfotable coming to you for help. Also, in my mind the respect God gives to you when you run to him with your problem(s). The same way God is respectful enough to stay quiet and actually LISTEN to you talk, you also need to have that respect for others.

A Hero in Action.

I love this man. he's such a cutie.

I first heard about him through my best friend. she told me about him

long time ago. she used to watch the news JUST to see him. [ WATCH, not listen ] meaning she'd just put the TV on, press the 'mute' button on the remote, so she wouldn't have to hear the actual news. and she'd have a great time, just watching her Andersen Cooper.

i personally HATE watching the news also.i hate watching it, and i hate listening to it.
it depresses me. it really does.

i mean, i'm not ignorant, i know it's important to listen to the news because you need to know what's going on in the world, but i think when you pay too much attention to it, you begin to live your life in FEAR...you're scared to do anything, b/c of what you saw on the news.

i like the face that Andersen Cooper is actually THERE in Haiti.[ unlike a lot of other celebs, who are only TALK, he actually GOES to the place that needs the help and helps the people out. ]  

he's a brave soul. i know it's his job, t still....i respect him.

this picture is unbelievable. the caption should be, "a hero in action."

Luckily for me, i can CHOOSE.

i can choose who i want to speak to.

and who i don't want to speak to.

One thing i'm not down with is 'stubborn ignorance.'

you know that kind of ignorance when YOU KNOW your being ignorant.

some people don't know their being ignorant, others KNOW.

and those who KNOW they are being ignorant. they are the ones i can't stand.

if you know your ignorant, then you should be smart enough to work on NOT being ignorant. but they won't, b/c their stubborn.

that's why i call it 'stubborn ignorance,' b/c their too stubborn + ignorant to change their ways.but then again, if they work on changing their nasty ways, that'll defeat the purpose, because ignorant people are...well, they're ignorant, so they won't work on changing their ways.

i guess in the end, they're too blind + ignorant to understand anything.

i know this blog didn't really make any sense.

 truth is, lately, i just been dealing w/ alot of ignorant people, so, that's the reason for this blog.

*p.s. i apologize for the bad writing tonight.*

Ella: "I'm behind you, win or loose..."

Juan: "...you stand alone. everyone else doesn't seem to..."

Ella: "who cares, who cares what everyone else thinks! LOOK, if you win, we'll go out and get drunk and have a blast!"

Juan: "...and if i loose?"

Ella: "...if you loose we'll still go out and get drunk and have a blast!"

Juan: " ....so i win either way?"

Ella: "yep. you win."

Juan: ".....wait, you don't even drink!"

Ella: "I'll make an exception for you!"

Juan: "lol thankssss, but i know you better then you think. you hate alcohol and you won't drink."

Ella: "your right, i won't. but i'll sit there and watch you drink! =) I'll be the friend that will make sure and get you home safely."

Juan: "aight, DEAL!"

Ella: "deal!"

Juan: "...I'm so glad i met you."

Ella: "awww, why?"

Juan: "your such a good friend....you & I know damn well i won't win, but your still backing me up...that means a lot."

Ella: "You're welcome."

*it takes so little to make people happy. all people really want is someone to believe in them.*

don't just read it;  understand it.

Cause of death; COFFEE!

i almost DIED on the way to Gabby's wedding.
about 5 minutes after we left Mindy-Ann's house, i took a slip of my coffee, and it went down the wrong hole, and after that, it was a wrap. i couldn't breathe, i was gasping for air, tears flooded my eyes, i turned red, i was just a mess. and just before i started choking, Mindy-Ann wanted me to call Gabby for directions, but i couldn't...i was too busy dying.
 

 

you know upsets me...when people tell me what to do.

the problem isn't even telling me what to do, the problem is THINKING i don't know to do. & because they THINK i don't know what to do, they feel they NEED to tell me what to do. and hear me when i say, you don't NEED to do ANYTHING for me. I'll make out just fine.

that's what ANNOYS the hell out of me most with people. people so fucking busy worrying about other people, why not worry about YOUR business. what makes you think i don't know what i needs to be done? Especially when it concerns ME. trust me hunny, you don't love me more then i love me, so how can you possibly think i wouldn't have my priorities straight?
point is, don't tell me what to do.

don't tell me what to think; I'm a very understanding person, not only do i think about myself, but i also think about others as well. I'm not ignorant, and i try very hard to see your point of view and understand where your coming from.

don't tell me how to dress; i hate dressing like everyone else. i wear whatever i want, when i want. if i wanna go outside with a big shirt on and no pants in the freezing cold. then LEAVE ME ALONE. don't worry about it, and don't BITCH about it, it's not you dressing like that.

don't tell me how to talk; this is a big one for you people who have a problem w/ my bad language. if i curse, it's because i WANT to. it ain't you cussing, so don't worry about it. and if you don't like my language, then don't talk to me. simple as that, problem solved. don't dictate to me and tell me to 'watch my mouth.' I'm not a child, i can do whatever the hell i want with my mouth, and say whatever i want, because it's MY mouth.


if you can't find something decent to talk to me about, then don't talk to me period.


it makes no difference to me.

you know what I'm waiting for?

i bet you'll never guess.

I'm waiting for that glorious day when Jesus Christ comes and saves us all. (well, saves those who need to be saved.)

that's the day I'm waiting for. I'm anxious for that day to come because i wanna leave this hateful world and go with God. I'm tired of walking amongst Stan and his followers. close minded & judgemental people who are reading this and thinking that I'm suicidal, think again, because I'm not. I'm just wise enough to know that NOTHING and NOBODY walking this Earth will make me happy the way God will. and I'm tired of searching and wandering the Earth feeling hopeless, and helpless. I'm tired of the burdens this world causes me to feel every waking minute.

i want out.

most people fear the day when the Lord comes again, they're scared because they're hearts are filled with evil, and they know they've done wrong, and they probably haven't, or don't intend on asking God for forgiveness, so they're unsure of where they're going. that's why they're scared. they ask themselves, "Will God remember me? or not?" I'm not afraid, because I've asked that question time and time again, and i know the answer. He will remember me. that's why I'm looking forward for the day He comes. i have nothing to fear, because I KNOW i live my life the BEST way that i can. I'm good to people, i care for people, i never give up on people, even when they give up on themselves. i do a good job in following Jesus. of course, i have my faults and flaws, I'm tainted just like the rest of you, but the only difference is, i TRY. i try SO HARD to be a good person. i try so hard to follow Jesus. and most importantly, i try to abstain from ALOT of things that you people do on a daily/nightly basis. because i know that those things aren't WORTH the gamble. it's not worth me jeopardizing my relationship with God. I'd be a hypocrite if i pray to God and tell him how i want to follow Him, and do better, but then day, I'm having sex with a boyfriend, or putting evil thoughts in my head. I'd be a hypocrite. that's why Jesus says you can't have two masters. you have to give up one, you can't have both. you just can't. it's either you follow the world, or you follow God. i choose to follow God.

i feel like the walking dead. I'm not living now, I'm just getting by, but i know when God comes and saves me from all this evil, that's when my life will BEGIN. I'm ready for that life...

i want out of this one.

DUMBASS of the day.

Bow wow is an idiot, he really is.

for Year News this is what he tweeted;


"Face numb im whippin the lambo. Tispy as f*k. Just left @livmiami. Im f**ked up!!! Ohhhh damn. Y i drive the lambo. Chris might have to drive after next spot."


...he has to be the DUMBEST person.

if you know you've been drinking, why brag about it? and to make it worst, your drinking AND driving.
it's to bad they can't arrest him for snitching on himself.


they should arrest him for drunk driving AND stupidity.